I am going through a test right now and I look back at my own life and I ask myself what is it gonna take or what did it take to change something in me.
Why do we just go through life with the same expectations? Why is it that we just say "thats just the way it is." Well my question to you is this...Why does it "just have to be that way" Life does not choose the path that we take. Life does not choose what we do. We do! Hello!?!? Is anyone listening? I make every decision about my life for myself. I, may decide to do something and that something is just my idea. It was just my want. Or I add something to my decision making that will make me look for the best way or the best thing to do. But even still that is my decision. Life does not choose for you to go to work at the same boring job and struggle every month with your bills. You choose to do that. Even in todays time there are still other jobs out there. Now this one here hits me pretty hard. Life does not choose those christians to have a close relationship with God and those who don't. We do. I choose whether or not I am going to grow in every aspect of my walk with Christ.
When are we going to stop looking around at everyone else and say man I wure wish that I was like that and make a stand for ourselves and go do it.
Life does not choose you. You choose life.
Its not what you can do for God, but rather what are you allowing God to do through you. Mercy Me sings a lyric "If the idea is mine...Its nothing but a waste of time."
I get so tired of looking at my life and see me go down the same roads over and over again and then look around when I get to the end and I am in the same situation that I was before and say I have no idea how I let it go this far. It gets on my nerves when a close friend or family member says the same hting to me. We make our own choices in this life. Are we going to make a mistake and say " Oh well, now I know what to look for." Or are we gonna say woah I will stay completely away from that road because that is where it all started and I wound up broken and hurt." Well if your not sure, the second response is the correct one. I used to be an alcoholic and I know that if I go to bars everynight that I will be right back into the exact same lifestyle that I was involved in before. I have to say to myself that I will stay away from bars and alcohol so that I may stay sober and remain sober.
I now know how so many people felt as they watched me go from someone with goals and dreams to someone that drank myself into a world of pain and aguish. You seriously just want to punch them in the face and say "WAKE UP RETARD" but we all know what kind of reaction that would trigger.
I love everyone that reads this and those that choose to turn away from it. I just want to give you a "pep talk" on life. I hope that I can encourage you to just better yourself and get out of the same rut that you have been stuck in for how ever long. God is strength. Call on Him and call on other people that are in your life that will lift you up.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Humbled Life
Pretty much all my life I have been a "Christian" but just for a short while have I been a Christ follower. I never really new that there was a difference until I had a direct experience with God's mercy and grace.
For a long time now I have been struggling with my job. Should I stay or should I move on? Is my job glorifying His name or is it hindering my service to Him? I had so many questions about God's will for me and what direction my life needed to be going.
Well with prayers answered I found a job yesterday. I was so super excited but soo nervous at the same time. I have been with Patterson for about 4yrs now and the men above me which just so happened to include my dad have spent countless hrs training and working with me to get me to be the leader that I had become with that company. I did not want to leave with them feeling like it was a slap in the face or like I had just given out on them. I needed them to understand my circumstances and understand that I cannot go without a job. I had to prepare myself for the inevitable. I had to have something lined up. And they did and they even offered me a job when things pick back up. They were almost proud of me for making such a tough decision and even said that it was wise. It actually positioned me to hear something that I never thought that I would hear from my father. He looked at me and said "I would do the same thing if I was you. You are making a good decision." Now if you don't know my dad that statement means nothing to you. But if you know and understand my dad that statement will almost bring you to tears just as it did me. My dad is not someone to say to me that I made a good and wise decision. He would and always has found error in my actions. It just really touched my heart that through all my nervousness and anxiety God shown through once again. The calmness of this mornings discussion with 3 of my bosses was anwser to prayer enough and then God even showed up to have them congratulate me and offer me good luck as a departing farewell.
I have found that after I gave my life to Christ and actually became a Christ follower that seeks wise and Godly advise life has had a much sweeter taste. Life will never be "easy" but "easier" is always a plus. I don't have the worry and the guilt that I used to have when making a decision like this. I lifted this entire situation up to God and I let Him take the reins and now I stand amazed that the God of the universe cares and desires to be apart of every aspect of my life. Whether it be my job or my relationships or just my spare time, God wants to be apart of it.
I just love waking up every single day to just see with anticipation what God is going to do. Through me. Through a friend. Or through someone that I have never met. I personally believe that when we stop looking for ways to "serve" God and start letting God use us, you will be so amazed at how quickly your life and passions will be changed. Its not what can I do for God but its am I being open for God to do with me what He wants. I sometime envy Pauls heart and willingness to go through anything and still praise God. My desire is to have that kind of heart and love for my Savior.
For a long time now I have been struggling with my job. Should I stay or should I move on? Is my job glorifying His name or is it hindering my service to Him? I had so many questions about God's will for me and what direction my life needed to be going.
Well with prayers answered I found a job yesterday. I was so super excited but soo nervous at the same time. I have been with Patterson for about 4yrs now and the men above me which just so happened to include my dad have spent countless hrs training and working with me to get me to be the leader that I had become with that company. I did not want to leave with them feeling like it was a slap in the face or like I had just given out on them. I needed them to understand my circumstances and understand that I cannot go without a job. I had to prepare myself for the inevitable. I had to have something lined up. And they did and they even offered me a job when things pick back up. They were almost proud of me for making such a tough decision and even said that it was wise. It actually positioned me to hear something that I never thought that I would hear from my father. He looked at me and said "I would do the same thing if I was you. You are making a good decision." Now if you don't know my dad that statement means nothing to you. But if you know and understand my dad that statement will almost bring you to tears just as it did me. My dad is not someone to say to me that I made a good and wise decision. He would and always has found error in my actions. It just really touched my heart that through all my nervousness and anxiety God shown through once again. The calmness of this mornings discussion with 3 of my bosses was anwser to prayer enough and then God even showed up to have them congratulate me and offer me good luck as a departing farewell.
I have found that after I gave my life to Christ and actually became a Christ follower that seeks wise and Godly advise life has had a much sweeter taste. Life will never be "easy" but "easier" is always a plus. I don't have the worry and the guilt that I used to have when making a decision like this. I lifted this entire situation up to God and I let Him take the reins and now I stand amazed that the God of the universe cares and desires to be apart of every aspect of my life. Whether it be my job or my relationships or just my spare time, God wants to be apart of it.
I just love waking up every single day to just see with anticipation what God is going to do. Through me. Through a friend. Or through someone that I have never met. I personally believe that when we stop looking for ways to "serve" God and start letting God use us, you will be so amazed at how quickly your life and passions will be changed. Its not what can I do for God but its am I being open for God to do with me what He wants. I sometime envy Pauls heart and willingness to go through anything and still praise God. My desire is to have that kind of heart and love for my Savior.
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