Humbled Life

Pretty much all my life I have been a "Christian" but just for a short while have I been a Christ follower. I never really new that there was a difference until I had a direct experience with God's mercy and grace.

For a long time now I have been struggling with my job. Should I stay or should I move on? Is my job glorifying His name or is it hindering my service to Him? I had so many questions about God's will for me and what direction my life needed to be going.

Well with prayers answered I found a job yesterday. I was so super excited but soo nervous at the same time. I have been with Patterson for about 4yrs now and the men above me which just so happened to include my dad have spent countless hrs training and working with me to get me to be the leader that I had become with that company. I did not want to leave with them feeling like it was a slap in the face or like I had just given out on them. I needed them to understand my circumstances and understand that I cannot go without a job. I had to prepare myself for the inevitable. I had to have something lined up. And they did and they even offered me a job when things pick back up. They were almost proud of me for making such a tough decision and even said that it was wise. It actually positioned me to hear something that I never thought that I would hear from my father. He looked at me and said "I would do the same thing if I was you. You are making a good decision." Now if you don't know my dad that statement means nothing to you. But if you know and understand my dad that statement will almost bring you to tears just as it did me. My dad is not someone to say to me that I made a good and wise decision. He would and always has found error in my actions. It just really touched my heart that through all my nervousness and anxiety God shown through once again. The calmness of this mornings discussion with 3 of my bosses was anwser to prayer enough and then God even showed up to have them congratulate me and offer me good luck as a departing farewell.

I have found that after I gave my life to Christ and actually became a Christ follower that seeks wise and Godly advise life has had a much sweeter taste. Life will never be "easy" but "easier" is always a plus. I don't have the worry and the guilt that I used to have when making a decision like this. I lifted this entire situation up to God and I let Him take the reins and now I stand amazed that the God of the universe cares and desires to be apart of every aspect of my life. Whether it be my job or my relationships or just my spare time, God wants to be apart of it.

I just love waking up every single day to just see with anticipation what God is going to do. Through me. Through a friend. Or through someone that I have never met. I personally believe that when we stop looking for ways to "serve" God and start letting God use us, you will be so amazed at how quickly your life and passions will be changed. Its not what can I do for God but its am I being open for God to do with me what He wants. I sometime envy Pauls heart and willingness to go through anything and still praise God. My desire is to have that kind of heart and love for my Savior.