What's It Gonna Take?

I am going through a test right now and I look back at my own life and I ask myself what is it gonna take or what did it take to change something in me.

Why do we just go through life with the same expectations? Why is it that we just say "thats just the way it is." Well my question to you is this...Why does it "just have to be that way" Life does not choose the path that we take. Life does not choose what we do. We do! Hello!?!? Is anyone listening? I make every decision about my life for myself. I, may decide to do something and that something is just my idea. It was just my want. Or I add something to my decision making that will make me look for the best way or the best thing to do. But even still that is my decision. Life does not choose for you to go to work at the same boring job and struggle every month with your bills. You choose to do that. Even in todays time there are still other jobs out there. Now this one here hits me pretty hard. Life does not choose those christians to have a close relationship with God and those who don't. We do. I choose whether or not I am going to grow in every aspect of my walk with Christ.

When are we going to stop looking around at everyone else and say man I wure wish that I was like that and make a stand for ourselves and go do it.

Life does not choose you. You choose life.

Its not what you can do for God, but rather what are you allowing God to do through you. Mercy Me sings a lyric "If the idea is mine...Its nothing but a waste of time."

I get so tired of looking at my life and see me go down the same roads over and over again and then look around when I get to the end and I am in the same situation that I was before and say I have no idea how I let it go this far. It gets on my nerves when a close friend or family member says the same hting to me. We make our own choices in this life. Are we going to make a mistake and say " Oh well, now I know what to look for." Or are we gonna say woah I will stay completely away from that road because that is where it all started and I wound up broken and hurt." Well if your not sure, the second response is the correct one. I used to be an alcoholic and I know that if I go to bars everynight that I will be right back into the exact same lifestyle that I was involved in before. I have to say to myself that I will stay away from bars and alcohol so that I may stay sober and remain sober.

I now know how so many people felt as they watched me go from someone with goals and dreams to someone that drank myself into a world of pain and aguish. You seriously just want to punch them in the face and say "WAKE UP RETARD" but we all know what kind of reaction that would trigger.

I love everyone that reads this and those that choose to turn away from it. I just want to give you a "pep talk" on life. I hope that I can encourage you to just better yourself and get out of the same rut that you have been stuck in for how ever long. God is strength. Call on Him and call on other people that are in your life that will lift you up.